This is a topic that I've wanted to discuss for so long. Anxiety is something that many of us women deal with but I'll let you know, you are NOT ALONE. 1 in 4 women in the UK has reported such issues.
The day I was attacked really changed my life. I have never felt so vulnerable before and it brought up a lot of new emotions. I was panicked, constantly worried and so anxious. You can imagine what it would feel like to be attacked somewhere you've grown up, where you feel so comfortable and so close to home. It was a surreal experience for me and really did scar me emotionally.
After that day, It was so hard for me to go out without feel so uncomfortable and frightened. I would have these mini panic attacks if I felt that someone was looking at me funny, following me or walking to close. For years, I dealt with this and I never let it go. It wasn't until last year that I sat with my friend in his car. He told me I cant be a prisoner of my past. I needed to deal with it head on and leave my past in the past. I honestly felt a HUGE weight off my shoulder. That was exactly what I did, yes I still have my moments but overall my level of anxiety much lower.
It is such a free'ing feeling to stop letting anxiety get in the way. Now when I look back, I spent 4 years being so afraid and not dealing with it. I had all this worry in my heart and my load was so heavy. I never spoke out about it because it was embarrassing, me Sinmi such an outwardly confident person feeling like this. I pray that one day it will totally go away but for now. when I feel overwhelmed, I have a few things I like to do.
Mathew 11:28
'Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened [by religious rituals that provide no peace], and I will give you rest [refreshing your souls.'
Philippians 4:6
'Do not be anxious or worried about anything, but in everything [every circumstance and situation] by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your [specific] requests known to God
Isiah 41:10
'Do not fear [anything], for I am with you; Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, be assured I will help you; I will certainly.'
'Fuk you anxiety' - Sinmi Adekola
Every morning, I listen to a breathing exercise and visualization routine. It has honestly changed my mindset and outlook on things. Taking a few minutes each day to really focus yourself and just breathe.
So, remember you are a SHEBOSS you are in control and have the power within you to change your life & BOSS up. It's truly up to you to make the choice to leave your past in the past. I am always here to be a shoulder to lean on & an ear to listen. email me sinmiadekola@gmail.com
You are a shameless SHEBOSS
love,
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